Escaping the past

Discussion in 'Ask the White Tower' started by Kailee, Nov 18, 2016.

  1. Kailee

    Kailee

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    So for twenty plus years now, I have been carrying a torch for my old high school sweetie. :cry Then over the years we have stayed friends. We both got married and divorced. I however had been wanting to get back together and rebuild the life that we had planned once before. While she on the other was up front and honest she had no plans on being anything more than friends.

    Fast forward a couple years, me and my ex got to know each other again we were spending a lot of time together again, then when we just seemed to up and move one. The hard thing is every time I seem to move on with my life; just a simple text and I am back to square one. all choked up emotional and wishing I had her in my life. Well finally I got to the point, I told my ex that sense I can't have her in my life, I can't have her in my life. :look I am finally at the point were I think I can move on.

    I would probably eat my words in a heart beat if she was to come out say lets give things a real chance. As much as I want to move on and be done with this altogether, I sorta hope we get together again. I am just torn, however I finally am able to admit its an unhealthy relationship. I have been to enough AA meetings and rehab (for drinking) to know the first real step is admitting there is a problem